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My body is an a$$hole.

My body is an a$$hole.

chronic illness chronic pain disabled life rare disease Sep 09, 2020

Posted on: Wednesday, September 9, 2020

Written on: Friday, July 24, 2020

My body is an asshole.

You read that correctly. Today is not a day where I am thankful for what my body can still do nor am I reminding myself that this pain flare too shall pass. Today is not a day where I’m using any coping skills. 

Today is a day where I curse my body. Today is a day where I wonder how much more one body can take. Today is a day where I just want some relief, so desperately, but I know it won’t come.

Anyone who says you can always find a way to be positive with chronic pain is full of crap. And if they have a disability and say they are always positive, they are likely experiencing some heavy denial and avoidance.

The medical bills, the pain flares, the extreme fatigue where even eating becomes a huge task, the internalized ableism that screams at you– “you did a thing yesterday, why are you being lazy today?” All. Of. It.

It’s not pretty. It’s not glamorous. It’s not inspirational. It’s often crabby, messy, debilitating, frustrating, exhausting.

As much as I fully identify as being disabled, today I wish I was anything but.

Stay Mindful,

Dr. Melissa Geraghty, Psy.D.

Dr. G Talk: Have you ever had the thought that your body is an asshole? Please share your thoughts in the comments section.

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